TKA project sa dos

i got a text message from my friend yesterday that really made me insane... that was the best news i've heard since 2008 began... haha ;p

the most recent drama that has been keeping me crazy for about 4 months now will soon be dubbed in tagalog. she said ABSCBN will be doing the ISWAK 2: They Kiss Again (TKA) project. Well, that's just right because they did the first season, so this is where the drama really belongs... besides, i think it won't be as beautifully dubbed and synched if the other station will be taking over.. hehe ;p she said the pilot dubbing will start on may 6 and she'll be one of the writers... and may be one of the dubbers too... wink*wink*... yes, you heard me right... may be one of the dubbers.

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i was actually sad that day... because the drama had ended, the last episode aired in Taiwan on 4/27. after thinking it had 28 episodes in total, it only had 20. now there's no more reason to keep up til noon to watch online streaming of the english subbed version in overstream.net. no more reason to look forward for the next episode coz it's finally finished... no more excitement... no more thrill thinking what's gonna happen next... then the text message came in... it was just in the nick of time, it actually made my day! there was so much happiness and excitement that i can't contain... from super low, i bounced way up high! Ü

the news came straight from my friend Margo who dubbed Vicky Ko a.k.a. Foxy Lady... yes, again, you heard me right, Vicky of Foxy Lady (Ch 7) who's the same voice of Minami Harou in Long Vacation (QTV), Gina in Green Rose (Ch 2), Trixie in Only You (Ch 2), Xiao Yuo in Meteor Garden (Ch 2), Rachel in Marrying a Millionare (Ch 2), etc... she's my korean soul sistah so she's a very truly trusted source. Ü

kamsahamnida margo! Ü

~grazhishu~

this is it...

so this is it... i guess... it's the last day of the month and til now, i still don't have my system... from 4 days down to 2... now it's down to 1 (which would be zero if my system would still not work later on my shift)... sigh... well i guess it's fate... i need to start to accept that maybe, it's not yet really time... i'm back to zero... need to make another start in july...

thanks to my friend who sent me this message just now:

"in all things always remember to give thanks. you might not be where you want to be, but neither are you where you used to be. if it hasn't happened yet, that doesn't mean it won't happen. remember, a delay is not a denial from God; in His own time, He will make all things beautiful."

this came just in time... I almost forgot that I should have been thankful instead for all the blessings I've received... especially those that we're unexpected... I didn't ask, but they came... serves well to remind me that everything happens for a reason (as I've always believed) and in His own time...

now it's time to give up and let go...

~grazhishu~

systems of a down

I have been on systems down since Wednesday, 4-23-08. After coming back from lunch, I can no longer log in to my gpp account. My aht is currently 220 seconds; my hope to lower it for the last 4 days of the month is now down to 2 days… from 220 to 204, how can I possibly do that?

Now this is super duper jinx! I don’t know why it keeps on happening. No matter how positive I think, there will still be things or events that hinder my plans. Is this a sign or something? I know that I do not have any right to question these events but I really wanna know why they keep on happening. I’ve computed my daily goal for aht to reach 204, I’ve set my mind and thought that there’s still hope… but what happened? From 4 days I’m down to 2 days, this means I would need to double the number of calls I have per day… and that would only be possible if I’ll take in calls the whole day which is not possible because of my mailbox task… and because of this, I would need to start all over again in July… I really am so tired…

Sigh… now this is really something… Am I really a bad person that I keep getting this karma?
Lately, they kept revising the promotion stats… from rolling calendar to calendar quarter… now they’re also adjusting the grade qualification (to a lot higher percentages)… making it more difficult for people to get promoted… slowly, I’m losing hope and courage to set my goals and hit tem… coz no matter what I do, something unexpected would always come up.

I’m getting so much tired of all these… no… I’ve actually been tired for a year now… I wanna quit. ;'(

ISWAK addict

From the beginning, It Started With A Kiss (ISWAK) has kept me crazy. Besides liking the lead actor, Joe Cheng very much, xiang qin and zhishu's story has really touched my heart. Maybe because I really like stories where the guy character is super hard to get and cold hearted with an "i-don't-care-about-you" attitude that later becomes "i-can't-live-without-you-can't-you-see?". Another reason that hooked me besides it being a romantic comedy series, is because I think the actors in this drama have chemistry.

I have watched tons of taiwanse and korean dramas... and I can say that is is my all time favorite. I admit that I had been a die hard fan of meteor garden before, i loved daomingsi and sanchai's love story. But after I watched ISWAK, I've almost forgotten them.. hahaha they were completely taken over by Jiang ZhiShu (JOE CHENG) and Yuan XiangQin (ARIEL LIN).

ISWAK, I didn't actually like it at first because I was so annoyed of xiangqin's appearance. She really looked too stupid and dumb. She's very persistent... she really doesn't give up until she achieves her goal. She's too naive and simple minded. On the contrary, she's also a very good friend and a very loving daughter. She has a pure heart and she's really a friend you can rely on... Most of the times though, despite her greatest efforts, everything would still end up in a mess. And this is where zhishu comes in... to fix all the mess XQ made. When I saw the lead guy, zhishu (Joe Cheng), I was in love at first sight just like XQ.. hahaha :P however, it makes me wonder sometimes because he's way too ideal... too perfect that I really doubt if there would be a guy like him in this planet. ZS in the story is a super genius student with an IQ of 200 who's also good in coking, tennis, basketball and swimming. Finding a guy who's good both in academic and sports is really hard, right? Because of his super charming appearance, he's undoubtedly the campus' most famous personality (heart throb). But he's really very cold hearted and sarcastic towards other people.

XQ fell in love at first sight when she first saw ZS who made a speech as a representative of freshmen during their high school opening ceremony. This went on for several years until they became seniors. XQ finally decided to confess her undying love by giving ZS a love letter. But as expected, ZS just ignored her. Then suddenly, an earthquake struck the Yuan's house leaving them homeless. Fortunately, the Jiang's saw the news in tv and decided to take them in. When the Yuans moved in to the Jiang's residence, XQ was really very shocked to see ZS... because she didn't know that her father was very good friends with ZS's mom and dad.

This is where their story started... (wish i was her!!! ♥)

Living under the same roof... XQ's appearance has brought color to ZS's boring and peaceful life. ZS said that since she came, everyday is not like an ordinary day... instead, it's full of surprises all the time... Though most of them would be problems due to XQ's stupidity, because of too much intelligence, ZS would still be able to handle everything in an easy way. They actually complemented each other. In the end, XQ's being naive and simple minded made him realize of his real goal, that is to pursue medicine.

ZS was just cold hearted on the outside... but inside, he really cared a lot for XQ. His actions spoke louder than words. He tried escaping and denying the idea that he loves her several times but he always failed. Everyone knew about this except for XQ (because she's so stupid.. haha :P) In the end, he was caught by his own heart. Hearing that Ahjin (Jiro Wang) was about to propose marriage to XQ made his mind blank for the first time, he didn't know what to do. He ran as fast as he could to every place he knows just to find XQ. And when he found her, finally he confessed his real feelings for XQ, who was in total shock.

After everything that they went thru, they got married and lived happily ever after... ♥

XQ's dream finally came true!!! this only goes to show that this filipino saying is true: "pag may tiyaga, may nilaga" haha :P

Sigh... there were a lot of KILIG scenes in this drama that I would be elaborating in my next post. Hopefully, I would have the time to do that... I really recommend that you watch this drama coz it's worth it. I have my own dvd copy and I've watched it a million times already.. hahaha :P the sequel, They Kiss Again is still airing in Taiwan... but I've heard that it will also be shown soon in the Philippines. YEY!!! :P

♥ grazhishu ♥

just can't get enough

So far, after watching almost 50 taiwanese and korean series in dvd, there are only 2 dramas that kept me wanting for more...

my favorite korean drama ♥ Princess Hours (Goong) ♥

and needless to say,
my favorite taiwanese drama ♥ It Started With A Kiss (ISWAK) 1 and 2 ♥

What's the common factor? I would say besides being both romantic and funny dramas, the lead girls are so devoted and the lead guys are so super hard to get.. ;p super hard to get guys really keep me hooked... it's some kinda magnet that i cannot escape... hehehe ;p

i dunno but i just love seeing a guy who's hard to get in the beginning... lets the girl desperately do everything possible to win his heart... would make fun of the girl most of the time or just not pay attention to everything she does... the girl would then get tired of doing almost everything for the guy and suddenly stops/decides to give up... then the guy would miss everything the girl does for him and he, then turns out to be and realizes he's so head over heals in love with the girl..

yeah... i know i'm just a typical hopeless romantic... poor me... but i really can't help it. it runs in my veins... ;p and i'm not denying coz i'm really hoping someday, i'll have the same kind of story... just like what other girls dream of... to find someone who'll love me as me, whole heartedly... ♥ '_' ♥

braces done

i had my braces removed last monday... after wearing it for 5 years, i've decided to have it removed. i actually wanted it removed last year but my dentist, who told me he'll just tour guam, turned out to have migrated and left philippines for good...

it felt quite different because i had those braces for 5 years and now it's gone... i'm really not used to it... now i'm just wearing retainers... which i think is much irritating than wearing braces... but i have to get used to it otherwise, if i don't wear it, my teeth may be reverted back to it's previous form, then i would have to wear braces again.. no no no... coz it's super expensive!!! hehehe ;p

[before]............................................................................ [after]
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here's the last day i had braces... ........................................ and this is me now with just retainers...

well, my braces did a good job transforming my butterfly two front teeth, huh? Ü

bakit SINGLE ang status mo

Got this from one of the folders I found in the office due to boredom...
it's worth your time so read on...

Bakit SINGLE ang status mo? eto ang mga kadalasang dahilan:

11. Destiny Adik
Eto yung mga naghihintay kay "Destiny" na gumawa ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga "partner in life".. ayannn... kapapanood nyo ng "Serendipity" eh feeling nila ang nangyari sa movie eh mangyayari rin sa kanila, such a cliche.. hindi ba nila alam na kung walang effort destiny is useless.

10. Perfectionist/ Mapili
Yes, isang taong perpeksiyonista. Yung tipong dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko. Pag may nakilala, nakita lang na pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad. O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw sa mabait boring daw, gusto bad boy/ pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka tatanungin ka bakit ang sama mo bakit mo nagawa yun! Adik ka ba?! Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman.. ung gusto mo halos magtambling ka pero deadma parin yang stunts mO sa kanya! Pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga kuya?

9. Busy Busyhan
Opo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kung estudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. Yung tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center]. Sabay tulog na. Kapag sabado masaya na sila sa tv, sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at sa linggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes. Pssssst.. pause for awhile.

8. Friendship Theory
Ano naman ito? Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend na hindi masasabi sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang mahabang panahon na pagsasama dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang pakikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship na iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship. ABA ! Oi lakasan mo ang loob at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan kaw rin. Minsan pa naman pareho kayong naghihintayan. . hmmp!

7. Born-to-be-one (Autistic)
Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw. Walang reasons. Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamatay sya sa mundo ng mag-isa. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang. Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh!

6. Happy-go-lucky
Eto yung taong walang alam kundi kasiyahan at trippings. Kahit sino nalang basta no strings attach. For fun lang daw... Walang halong seryosohan. ABA hoy! yang init ng katawan mo e ikiskis mo nalang sa pader. Makakahanap ka rin ng katapat mo!!!

5. Wrong Place
May nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik.

4. Wrong Time
Eto yung mga tao na sinasabi na, hindi pa ako ready e bata pa kasi ako o kaya naman hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito, wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki. Yes meron pong ganyan. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love. Awwwwwww. Aba kelan yun? Pag uugod ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod.

3. Si parents kasi!
Yes, factor din ang komyunidad na ginagalawan mo. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo. Aba, ikaw nga ba naman ang sabihan na.. "Alam mo hindi kayo bagay","langit at lupa kayo..." Awwwww. Payo ko sayo, Pakialam nila diba? Palibhasa inggit!

2. Traumatic Experience
Eto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. Ayaw ko na!!! takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati! O diba ang drama ng layp? Yes, tama ka. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until na ayaw mo ng magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na bye-bye, o dahil binugbog ka!, ano pa ba? Madami yan wag na nating isa isahin at baka tumulo si tears hehehe... Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo. Ibat iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim. Aba mapalad ka at natikman mo ang ibat ibang lasa nito. Kaya ikaw, Do not be afraid to fall in love again malay mo sweetiness na ang malasahin mo next time. E di panalo ka sa lotto. Yan ang nagpapalakas sayo. Yan ang bumubuhay sayo, ang pag-ibig. tsk! drama!

1. EX to the nth power
Oi aminin!!! LOVE pa rin si Ex kahit 1 or 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas. May ganito naman. Yung tipong ilang taon ang nakakalipas, hindi parin makalimutan si ex. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyong magpaalam sa isa't isa. YES, after ay year sasabihin natin, im over him/her na, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relastionship from the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo. At habang nagkukwento ka, ouch may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa ating kalooban. Ano kaya yun? AMININ mo na kasi MAHAL mo pa si EX. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well mahirap sya kalimutan alam ko yan pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba. At give urself KITKAT, take a break...

♥ grazhishu ♥

mortal frustration

I’ve always been so eager to get what I want. Since I was a child, I’ve wanted to show everyone that I can do anything and everything. But as I grow older, I realize that I can’t have it all. Or let me rephrase it… I can’t have it all at the same time. There will be times of failure, frustrations, hopelessness, hardships, shortcomings, etc. Times when you feel you’ve done everything, but still you can’t reach it. Makes you wanna sing “I did my best, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough…” times when you just want to wait for a sign that will tell you it’s time to give up and let go...

Thru these times, I realize living is not easy… that life on earth I like joining the reality game show SURVIVOR. You have to be competent, prove to them all that you’re strong. Even though you’re scared, you should pretend and show them you’re brave (they actually wouldn’t know you’re just pretending). For every opportunity given, you should always give your best shot, coz we’ll never know if we’ll be given a second chance. Or if there even is a second chance…

Hard, isn’t it? On the contrary, it’s also during these times that I learn a lot… I grow not only physically but psychologically, emotionally and socially as well… although, sad to say, there will be times some people will try to bring you down. I don’t know what they get out of it... But on the second thought, I think I somehow benefit from it. Because of those people, I become better and stronger as a person…

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Well, maybe if it’s not yet meant to happen, it will not happen… I firmly believe that everything happens at the right place and at the right time… according to God’s will and plan. One thing for sure, what He’ll be giving is more than what we wanted and expected because He simply knows what’s best for us.

So here I am… frustrated, but still holding on.. Ü

WITH YOU ::: Chris Brown

i'm currently so addicted with this song...
wishin' someone would sing this song for me... Ü
harhar ;p

:::

I need you boo, (oh) I gotta see you boo (hey),

And the hearts all over the world tonight,

Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Verse 1]

Hey! Little mama, oh, you're a stunner..

Hot.. little figure, yes, you're a winner,

And I'm so glad to be yours, you're a class all your own,

And.. Oh, little cutie, when you talk to me,

I swear.. the whole world stops, You're my sweetheart,

And I'm so glad that you are mine, You are one of a kind and..

You mean to me, what I mean to you and..

Together baby, there is nothing we won't do

[Refrain]

'cause if I got you,

I don't need money, I don't need cars,

Girl, you're my all.. And..

[Chorus]

Oh! I'm into you, And girl, no one else would do,

'cause with every kiss and every hug,

You make me fall in love,

And now I know I can't be the only one,

I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight,

With the love of they life who feel what I feel when I'm..

With you [x5] Girl.. With you [x5] Oh girl!

[Verse 2]

I don't want nobody else,

Without you, there's no one left then,

You're like Jordans on Saturday,

I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,

Hey! Little shawty, Say you care for me,

You know I care for you, You know that I'll be true,

You know that I won't lie, You know that I would try,

To be your everything..yeah..

[Refrain]

[Chorus]

Yeah Heh..

[Bridge]

And I.. Will never try to deny that you're my whole life,

'cause if you ever let me go, I would die..

So I won't front, I don't need another woman,

I just need your all and nothing,

'cause if I got that, then I'll be straight,

Baby, you're the best part of my day

I need you boo, I gotta see you boo,

And the hearts all over the world tonight,

Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

Woo Oh.. Yeah.. They need it boo, They gotta see their boo,

Said the hearts all over the world tonight,

Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Chorus]

With you [x5] Girl.. With you [x5] Oh..

♥ ~grazhishu~

anew

a new quarter... means a new start...

since there has been several major changes in the scorecard system and promo standards... whether i like it or not... i have no choice but to accept it... i have been struggling for a year now... well i guess it isn't really time yet, but i really wonder when will that be? from rolling calendar, now it's calendar quarter. meaning if your stats failed in april, you can no longer use may and june, instead you need to start in july again... sigh...

will i be able to make it? i hope so...


~grazhishu~

super down remedy

When you're super down, I think the following would be the best remedy... This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

~There are at least two people in this world that you would die for. ~

~At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.~

~The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.~

~A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.~

~Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.~

~You mean the world to someone.~

~You are special and unique.~

~Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.~

~When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.~

~When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.~

~Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.~

can I be Ariel Lin?

if there is just one person i would be exchanging places with...
then that would definitely be ARIEL LIN!!! (can i? wink*wink*)

why? not that I like her a lot, I actually don't like her that much...

there is actually just one reason...
just one... ♥Ü♥



ARIEL LIN a.k.a. Lin Yi Chen is one of the most famous taiwanese actresses nowadays. I saw her first in the taiwanese drama It Started With A Kiss (ISWAK) which was based from the Japanese Manga Itazuranakiss. I actually hated her that time because she looked so stupid and so ugly, that was i think in 2006, when ABS CBN adopted and dubbed the series in tagalog.

But infairness, she does act well. I had no choice but to watch ISWAK because i really liked the lead actor (Joe Cheng) though i was really annoyed to see her face. After that, there were several shows aired in other tv networks with her as the main/lead actress. I also saw Vic Zhou's music video featuring her, that was I think, Make A Wish. Then I realized, maybe she really is something else... or should I say she really is SOMEONE FAMOUS in Taiwan.

Years passed and she's just getting more and more popular. I also noticed that in her other other series, she actually looks fine. Then I thought, maybe it was just really for ISWAK that they made her look so silly and ugly. Well that may have also contributed to the huge success of that drama, coz who would have thought that there will be a sequel after that?!? She also had several series with other actors like mike he (love contract) and wu zun (tokyo juliet); and several commercials and endorsements as well.

Just recently, the sequel of ISWAK: They Kiss Again (TKA), began airing in Taiwan, December 16, 2007. I have been dying to see this since March 2007, that was when I heard that they've began filming the sequel. Her appearance on this one really changed a lot. She became pretty unexpectedly, for me. From a silly plain looking girl, she was transformed to a fine pretty young lady. Joe Cheng changed as well, he was more good looking on this one compared to the first season. His hair was shorter and it really looked good on him! So kawai!!! Ü

This series really showed a lot of kissing scenes and other unexpected scenes, I was always blown away. Definitely better than the first season, this one's so hilarious! :P I was so envious that I almost died watching xiang qin (ariel lin) kissing zhi shu (joe cheng). It wasn't just once, twice or thrice... I actually can no longer count using my 2 hands!!! waaaahhhhh! and this is what freaks me out!!! I am so jealous!!!! she has kissed him so many many many times, who knows how many?

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So do I still need to explain why i'd like to exchange places with her?
OMG, she's really one hell of a lucky girl! I really wish I'd be her.... damn!

~grazhishu~

incarcerated

i very much love freedom... well, who doesn't, in the first place?
this is also the main reason why i studied in UP...
not that i would be doing whatever i want...
but, that i would have freedom to do what i think is right...

but right now, i feel like i'm jailed, there is so much injustice...
i'm given so little time but there's so much to do...
i barely have time to chat and check my personal mails.
that's actually just fine... i'm very much willing to finish all the tasks...
the problem is, we are not given the privilege to freely render OTs...
all should be pre-approved (in other words, granted before hand)...
how am i suppose to know if i'll be able to finish all those escalations?
that is not until i'm left with less than an hour before i log out...
my point is just simple, i just need ample time to finish all my tasks...
to have ample time, i would need to render OT and that's fine...
but we shouldn't be hindered or questioned for doing that...
we're not even doing OT just to chat or to be just PETIKS inside the ops...
i'm not doing it for my sake... i don't like going home late, hello?!
we're doing OT so we can complete our deliverables and
so that responses would be provided within the TAT...

sigh...

but i guess i'm just unlucky...
imprisoned of work without ample time...
this again makes me wanna cry... :'-(

~inFAIRness~

inFAIRness... is eTelecare LIBIS 1 and 2's site GA, held today from 7am - 1pm. I was there... :)

I just got home from the FAIR... I had to go to avail of the dress down privilege for the last two weeks of March. in addition, I was also kind of interested to see what it looked like.

Teasers were kind of inviting... so I said “why not check it out?”

Booths from high school days were there: marriage booth, jail booth, gaming booths, henna and glitter tattoo booth, etc. and guess what? Right after we registered, I was immediately caught by one of the sheriffs (from Cingular) for wearing an ID, which of course I’m not aware of since I’ve just arrived… take note, I went there right after my shift so I really haven’t taken off my ID. But that’s fine since I heard proceeds would be given to aid the operation of one of their team mates, I just paid p30 for immunity to end the conversation. There were song and dance numbers from different programs as well.

There’s also free food. Hotdogs, fish balls, squid balls, macaroni & cheese, cotton candy and ice cream. Free drinks of course, we’ve got portable pantry… haha ;p

Hmmm it was fun… not super... just so so... pero pwede na rin.. ;p
at least I get to go on dress down until end of March and that was my main goal.

~dress down~~dress down~

and i'm now on off!!! weeeeeeeeeee! Ü

hanging by a moment

a lot of people are leaving... and this really makes me sad...

just last night, i heard one of my colleagues planning to submit a resignation letter... sigh... besides the annual program ramp down in january, there are still many others who leave unexpectedly... some bid goodbye, others just leave without a trace...

actually, i have had several plans or should i say attempts to resign as well... i have always felt tired of what i'm doing and this keeps on getting worse everyday (meaning i'm getting more tired and more lazy as days pass by ;p)... but i really cannot make up my mind due to several reasons:

1. i'm the eldest child, so i'm a provider...
2. my brother is a fresh graduate educ board passer (he's actually 4th placer in the 2007 LET for 2ndary educ... infairness! Ü). he's already working but his salary is really bad! (hahaha ;p) but he'll be transferring this june.
3. i'll be adjusting again to a new environment
4. i'll be leaving a lot of friends
5. i need to socialize to make new friends
6. another application/interview which i hate the most (haha ;p)
7. i'm afraid the offer (salary) would not be higher
8. i'll be missing our coffee vendo in the pantry... where you choose the flavor, just push the button and viola! hot coffee mix for free!!!Ü
9. i'll miss the unlimited iced tea and juice as well... which are, by the way, also free!
10. i'm not sure whether to look for a job for my course or just look for another call center

there are only 2 things that would definitely make me transfer:

1. - more accessible work location and
2. - high compensation package offer

these are just 2 "to leave" reasons compared to 10 "not to leave" reasons i listed above... no wonder i've always considered staying rather than leaving. i have asked for several signs... but apparently, i'm not getting any. so i'll be waiting again... then maybe i'll be able to decide if i should stay or if i should leave... for now... i feel like everything is hanging... hanging because i'm undecided... and hanging because i'm so tired, wanna hang on a swing just like this bear... ;p

transport strike

since i'm on the graveyard shift, i log out and go home in the morning.
earlier this day, i logged out at 630, went out of the office almost 7 am, reached philcoa at 730. i was with my officemate. we waited there in front of mcdonalds for almost half an hour. aircon buses were very rare, most are jeepneys, taxis, fxs and ordinary buses. we rode in an fx with sm lagro hilltop route. i was in lagro at about 820, i waited again for about 10 mins until i was able to ride a jeepney that goes inside our subdivision... but the story doesn't end there... that's not even the start yet.

what really pissed me off is what happened after passing over fatima university in hilltop... slowly the vehicles started to pile up... traffic was moving very slow... before we reached mater carmeli, from afar you can already see a lot people walking down the streets... then the jeepney driver told us that there were other drivers on the street who are forcing other drivers to stop and participate in the transpo strike. but it's not only that, they are also forcing the passengers to get off and just walk from mater up to lagro or maybe up to sm fairview...

is that fair? of course not! that is so annoying!!!

i mean there's nothing wrong with organizing and participating in transpo strikes. i'm also alarmed of how fast oil price hikes occur in a month or sometimes just in a week's span. i do understand that they are just fighting for their principles and they're doing for the good of all the operators and drivers... there's definitely nothing wrong if you want your voice to be heard...
BUT... is it right that they smash wind shields of jeepneys who do not want to participate and that they force even the passengers to get off the public vehicle. definitely NOT!!!

i even heard one of them shout "makisama ka naman pare! kanina ka pa biyahe ng biyahe! nakailang daan ka na dito ah! ililista ko na yang plate number mo, lagot ka samin pag pumasada ka pa!"

what an attitude?!?

their goal is indeed noble, BUT "the way" that they use to implement it? is very unfair and unacceptable!!! if you wanna be heard, you can always speak up, but using VIOLENCE has never been an answer to problems/crisis like this. that is actually in a way being SELFISH... the "i don't care about you, i will fight for my right!" attitude... they don't care about other citizen's welfare... they definitely don't mind seeing passengers walking under the sizzling sun and for sure, they never thought of other drivers who would like to earn just a little for their family before the strike starts.

they should have allowed others until let's say 9am, just an allowance so students and regular employees would be able to reach their destinations. BUT NO! they really wanted everyone to be affected just so they can fight for their right... i actually consider myself lucky because i'm already on my way home... but how about the students and those employees working at daytime who are just about to go to work?!? for sure most of them will not arrive on time! and those selfish drivers, THEY JUST DON'T CARE!!!

this is again an example of exploited democracy...
sadly, most filipinos have taken advantage of this freedom...
for every opposing ideas/beliefs/principles, resultant is always a rally or strike...
there is no wonder why this country is in such mess...

and nobody knows when this is all gonna end... or will this ever end???

my own diversion

there are times when you feel like you've just had enough of everything... that you've been so tired of everything you do... sometimes due to problems that you encounter everyday... and the never ending responsibilities that you need to fulfill... or due to tragic events you've experienced, whether it be with a close family member, a friend or a special someone... like losing someone you love thru an accident, thru a third party or just because he/she fell out of love...

well for me, dwelling on the situation will just make you more helpless.. the more you pity yourself, thinking how less fortunate and less worthy you are because of what happened... the more that you sink further and further down until you can no longer recover.

i know it's so easy to say but so hard to do... however, i think this would be the best way. that is to think how fortunate you are compared to other people and to divert your attention to other things. you may engage or join other activities. your situation is actually not the worst of all. there are many other people in this world who are less fortunate and who do not enjoy the things that you already have. to divert your attention, you may go to the gym for work out, go to the mall and watch movies, attend a fund raising project or be a volunteer on a house building project for less fortunate people, hang out with your friends that you haven't seen for so long, etc... there's actually so much to do in this world other than to just think of your problem the whole day.

well as for me, what works best is watching my korean and taiwanese drama dvd collection... i know others would find it so boring or so corny, but i don't really care. though the stories sometimes are quite predictable and simple, they have the ability to enlighten/brighten up my mood. most of them are FEEL GOOD dramas... best suited for depressed/tired people or even for a normal person who just wants relaxation.

there is always this "KILIG" factor in this kdramas, which is what i rarely find in american series. you'll have this "KILIG" feeling just by seeing how the characters gaze at each other, the way they converse with each other, the way they hold hands, the way they hug and kiss... really very different from american/mexican series. i don't know if it's just me, but i feel like the emotions are so real, unlike those american series where i can't see any spark.

you might as well try and see for yourself... :)

~ aja! ~

sleep all day

i guess i really felt so tired the past week coz i spent the first day of my off sleeping... for about 12 long hours... zzzz... zzzz... zzzz... when i woke up, it's already midnight of saturday... hehehe ;p

but i think i deserve that because i've been lacking sleep eversince i shifted to graveyard sched and i almost reached the limit this past week coz i felt almost dozing off in the office. that really scared me a lot! i didn't expect that would happen because i'm used to having just a few hours of sleep. well then maybe my colleague is right, my immune system finally reached it's max limit, meaning i have had so much of inadequate sleep that it can no longer tolerate, so it eventually gave up... so it's just right that i slept that much. besides, sleeping is one of my favorite activities in this world... hehe ;p

but now i'm ok and i'm back on track!!! just ready for my long awaited and anticipated dvd marathons... i missed joe cheng so much!!! i also missed a little of yoon eun hye, ariel lin, lee da hae, lee ji hoon, lee dong wook... hehehe :)

pick one

sino ba ang mas mahalaga...

ang taong mahal mo o ang taong gusto mong mahalin?

ang taong kasama mo buong araw o ang taong iniisip mo bago matapos ang araw?

siya bang kasakasama mo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo

o siyang dahilan ng lahat ng galaw at kilos mo?

ung taong nais mong makasama habang buhay

o ung taong di mo makita ang habangbuhay pag wala siya?
sinong mas matimbang...

ung taong pag kasama mo'y parang kay bilis ng oras

o ung taong tuwing iniisip mo'y parang kay tagal ng oras?
ano ang susundin mo...

ang idinidikta mo sa puso mo ang ang idinidikta ng puso mo syo?

siya ba un laging pumapasok sa isip mo o siya un laging laman ng panaginip mo?

sino nga ba...

ang taong nagpaluha syo o ang taong nagpunas sa minsang pagluha mo?

ang taong nagpapatawa syo o ang taong dahilan ng lahat ng iyong emosyon?
sino nga bang pipiliin mo?

ang taong muling nagbukas ng puso mo o ang taong matagal ng nandoon...?????? ^_^

overworked?

i just had this threatening experience yesterday in the office... this is not a scary ghost story if that's what you're thinkin'.

i was just surprised that after working for more than 2 years now in this industry, that was the first time i had this... i work from 9pm to 6am daily. i was in the morning shift before though, and was just transferred to graveyard shift about 2 months ago. i do calls half of my shift and the remaining time, i spend for filing forms and client requests which most, if not all, use microsoft excel. of course, there are days also that we need to file whole day due to huge request volume. i was just so shocked because yesterday, while i was in the middle of compiling our database, i suddenly felt dizziness and shortness of breath. i was scared to death! thought i would just doze off... i was so nervous but i had no choice but to control myself... because the more nervous i get, the more difficult it was for me to breathe... felt like i'm almost dying... i paused for a while and closed my eyes... i actually prayed coz i no longer know what to do... it took quite some time before i felt ok again...

i felt so scared because i'm not used to it... well, maybe this is the sign that i really need a break... but how am i gonna do that?!? waaaaahhhhh!!!!

because of this, i thought that you really cannot say what's gonna happen next... and it's so true that anything can happen. one time you're ok, next time maybe not... you really can't tell...

Unwanted Hypothalamus

a friend of mine shared this beautiful article back in college. i liked it a lot... the words are so simple yet so striking! this is for those who have been in love... more on the one-sided love type... sigh... read on...

Unwanted Hypothalamus

-anonymous-

Make me numb…

so when I see you again,

my cardiac muscles wouldn’t have to involuntarily palpitate

causing my heart to skip a beat or two.

I want you to make me numb.

Make me numb…

so when I smell your perfume,

chest pains wouldn’t have to be triggered by my olfactory senses.

I want you to make me numb.

Make me numb…

so when your friendly hands pat my back,

my sensory nerves dendrites and axons

wouldn’t have to interpret it as something stinging and painful.

Make me unable to feel your touch.

Make me numb…

so that the moment I hear you’ve found another person to love,

my lungs wouldn’t forget how to respire

and tears wouldn’t have to come from my eyes.

Take away my emotions from me.

Lobotomize my brain,

cut off the part which makes me feel.

Cast a magic spell on me, transform me into a stone.

Do anything you can, just please make me numb.

After all, it’s the least you can do…

to a girl you’ve caused so much pain to…

too much

that's what i always feel whenever saturday morning comes. it's my off, at long last... hopefully i would be able to rest my mind for a while...

the past 3 months had really exhausted me.. shifted from morning to night..
given so little time, left with so much to do...

too much stress.. too much workload.. too much pressure.. too much change.. too much expectations.. too much disappointment.. too much grudge.. too much hate.. too much pity.. too much annoyance.. too much shock.. too much tolerance.. too much injustice.. too much envy.. too much responsibility.. too much demand.. too much worries..

all too much for me to handle... felt like almost giving up... i hated feeling all of those i mentioned above... coz i'm not used to feeling those negative vibes... that's not ME.
i felt so lost and wasted, i even cried several times... i was really sad.

i can say it was just lately that i was able to recover, and i'm still in the process of getting used to my new life.. i'm almost there! i'm just thinking that this was given to me because i'm deserving and i'm the most qualified for the position, and that this will make me a better person. hope i would be given more strength, patience and enthusiasm to get thru this all..

i also wanna gain my optimism back... because that was what i lost the most... :(

blast from the past

I was just going through some old things in my room during my off when I ran over my old autograph book… it’s almost 10 years old… i had that when i was still in highschool. still looks good, pages were still intact.. i started reading...

Flashes of memories came over… lots of them… old classmates in high school I have not seen for almost a decade… old friends I miss so much… old flings and crushes… hehehe ;p I browsed and read the messages… I was really overwhelmed. Call me emotional or whatsoever, but I was really moved… it really felt good… I remember the old times, both good and bad… I also ran over some old letters from some old friends.. it felt even nicer. Made me wish I had this “back to the future” gadget. I wanna go back to the past and be with my friends again. I wanna see old faces. I wanna be there even if just for a while… just for a little while…

it was just then when I realized how fast 10 years passed me by. It felt just like yesterday. This made me miss my friends even more… Time really flies so fast… another ten years will pass in the not so distant future… makes me wonder, what will I be in the next 10 years? one thing for

sure, I won't get any younger... but what will happen? no one knows...

hopefully, all will be well... wishful thinking.. :)