twilight saga

i was just with a friend last night to watch the very much anticipated movie of the year... TWILIGHT... since i'm not so into books and novels, i really had no idea what this movie was all about. i was actually hesitant to watch it because i may be wasting a hundred bucks for a movie that i'm not even sure if worth watching... but because my friend was very makulet, we watched the movie as planned.

before entering the movie house, we bought 2 bmm (bacon mushroom melt) meals for take out at wendy's. then we went inside 5 minutes before the screening time for the last full show.. heehehe excited!

then the movie started... contrary to what i expected, i was up the entire film. i thought i would be dozing off but i didn't. especially when i saw edward cullen as portrayed by robert pattison... his face was so familiar, i think i've seen him several times before... then when i told my friend, she said he has been in several movies and the most famous role he got prior to this movie was being 'cedric diggory' in harry potter and the goblet of fire. wow! i knew it! he really is cedric!

from having a support role 3 years ago.. look at him now.. he's already the lead actor in the phenominal novel 'twilight' next to the hit harry potter. even though he looks so pale (as if not having a drop of blood at all), his appeal is still so astonishing! i must admit that i've fallen deeper for him... coz i've liked him when i saw him before in HP... but now... seeing him as a vampire driving a shiny silver volvo... whew! took my breath away!

then i remembered the text messages i got several times saying:
"women nowadays still dream of a fairytale ending... but what they want is not a knight on a white horse... but the vampire on a shiny silver volvo... -- edward anthony mason cullen of twilight.."

so it was him. this was the only time i knew that he was this vampire on a shiny silver volvo. the story, for me, is very romantic. i know a lot are saying that the movie was quite shallow and predictable... just another teen flick... but not for me. predictable maybe, as most love stories are. even so, i liked it a lot! maybe because i'm really into romantic love stories. i was just very touched by the thought that this handsome vampire fell in love with a mortal whom used to be their prey/food... human beings... don't you think it's a really big sacrifice to fall in love with what used to keep you alive? the blood that used to quench your thirst... i was also very impressed with how edward and his family protected her, bella, when the other vampire was so crazy to catch her. i was so moved.. he was even watching her sleep to keep her safe... awwww...

then i received another text message.. still about twilight... but focusing on edward's dialogues.. here goes:
"few reasons why a lot of girls love EDWARD ANTHONY MASON CULLEN...
a normal guy would say: i love you baby!
Edward would say: you are my life now.
as you leave the house, a normal guy would say: bye! see yah!
Edward would say: hurry back to me.
while you've gone far away, a normal guy would say: i miss you.
Edward would say: it's like you've taken half myself with you.
and if you died, a normal guy would find another. while Edward would kill himself because life without you isn't worth living.. "

well, if these were all true, who wouldn't be falling for a vampire like Edward? can you tell me? oh come on! the addiction has just begun.. and i don't care what they say, i'm in love with Edward.. harhar.. bleeding love... :D

~grazhishu~
*a wu chun fan*
*forever loyal joe cheng gal*

for the last time...

for the last time... i entered the blue box ops and had my last shift in rolex last friday night, 11-21-08... everything was fine... i got to station in what used to be MY own station, the computer near the entrance and the glass wall...

for the last time, i entered my log in ID in avaya, opened my outlook and checked for mails... i checked all the spreadsheets and made sure they're updated... i also opened the rolex mailbox folder just to take a glance for the last time...

for the last time, i stood up and looked all over the blue box ops area... i can say that i was perfectly okay... just feeling a little sad as that was my last day there... even so, i was still able to laugh at jokes and smile at the people around me... i was even able to wite a farewell letter without a tear dropping from my eyes...

i finished the letter at about 9am... we met some old friends in something fishy and then went to yellow cab for tl icay's treat... even there i was laughing real hard that i almost fell down from my chair because of my colleague's jokes and stories... by the way, the pizza was so yummy! thanks tl icay! :)

then i went straight home just like my normal routine... and when i reached home, i just continued watching "wonderful life", a korean romantic comedy drama that aired in abscbn in 2005 or 2006 (i think), that i started watching last week... and while i was in the middle of watching a sad scene, i suddenly felt sad also... so so sad that i suddenly felt my tears continuously flowing down my cheeks... but i wasn't crying because of the drama... it's because of the idea that i'm no longer in rolex.. i don't know why but it suddenly hit me... i guess this the only time that it really sinked in my head... i was crying to the point that i can no longer breathe... i wanted to stop but i simply can't... good thing that i was alone in my room, no one saw... i ended up turning off my dvd player and sleeping because my eyes are already hurting...

sigh... didn't think i will be such a cry baby because of my transfer but i was... well maybe staying in a program for 3 years 1 month and 5 days would really have that effect... the countdown was finally over.. galpy of rolex has finally signed off...

my training in m&m will start tomorrow night, 11-24-08... hopefully, everything goes well though i will be training alone... alone in the sense that i don't know anybody from the class unlike chiqui, jen and ching who went to training together... now this is for real...

i'm just hoping that it would be fun and that the people would be warm and accommodating...
i really hope! fighting! aja!


~grazhishu~
*new wu chun fan*
*forever loyal joe cheng gal*

false alarm...

i was suppose to start my training in m&m last night... but instead, i found myself still inside the XOR (Xmen-Omega-Rolex) blue box ops, sitting on my chair, logged on my computer station and doing my mailbox tasks...

yeah... my m&m training was postponed and my stay in rolex was extended... :)

i had to stay mainly for the smooth mailbox transition... our OM informed us last wednesday or thursday (can't clearly remember) that our client did not allow our immediate transfer and required one of the IST members to stay for 2 more weeks... to make sure that the turn over of the tasks goes well...

but this, for me, is both happy and sad...

happy because i will be staying for two more weeks in rolex... this means i still have 2 more "relaxed" weeks -- relaxed meaning i don't have to think yet of m&m.. i'm still around the people/crowd i know.. still inside the comfort zone.. not the "petiks" type of relaxation, i actually have a lot of mailbox tasks to do.. but since i've been used to it, it's lesser pressure... gets?

but this also makes me sad because this implies that i would be going to training alone... i will be attending classes and entering the room without knowing anybody from the crowd... feeling like a total stranger.. that sucks! what worries me the most is i'm not that sociable... meaning if i don't know you and you won't talk to me, i won't talk to you either... it takes me quite sometime before i completely mingle with acquaintances (people i've just met)...

and yes... i was the chosen one... i don't know if i should be considering this as lucky or not.. a part of me says YES.. and the other part says NO... well, whatever it is, i know and i always believe that everything happens for a reason.. reason that i will know in due time... i know that He has His own plans for me... and i know that He knows what's best for me... :)

so for the mean time, let's reset the countdown to 13 days... :)

~grazhishu~
*new wu chun fan*
*forever loyal joe cheng gal*

and the countdown begins...

my last week in rolex begins tonight.. but since i'm on leave today, 5 days is down to 4...

today, the sky is cloudy and droplets of rain are falling non-stop... i was suppose to wake up at about 8 am in the morning because i had to go to Quezon City hall to renew my NBI clearance for my new program... but the weather kind of disagrees with my plan for the day, i wasn't able to get up until 11am due to the cold weather... if it wasn't that important, i would just be sleeping the whole day... mainly the reason why i filed for a leave -- just to rest...

despite my laziness, i managed pulling myself out of my bed and going to QC hall for the renewal... the process didn't take that long... since i'm just renewing, i just had to pay the fee, take a photo, then after that, would be claiming already... however, i had a HIT in their records... the clerk asked me if i had finished working for 5 years in the philippines, i said "no, tatlong taon pa lang po...", then she told me that i still have a HOLD DEPARTURE ORDER... this is because of my DOST scholarship. but that should have been lifted because i was suppose to serve for 3 years only, the same period/duration that i was able to enjoy/use the scholarship... and my 3rd year in eTel (october 17) marked the end of the bond... so i'm actually not sure what happened... this is so disappointing and unexpected.. she said i'd be able to claim my clearance the earliest on 11/12... but i had to submit it tomorrow, 11/04... how lucky, huh?! after thinking that i will be able to claim it the same day... the exact opposite happened...

sigh... we should really be expecting the unexpected all the time... because they happen... they really do... especially when you least expect them... being transferred to another program this early is actually already a very unexpected thing for me...

right now... i'm feeling disappointed, sad, happy, excited, nervous, pressured, etc. yeah, you may call it mixed emotions... as it is, literally... disappointed of the delay in my NBI clearance... sad that after 3 years i would be leaving rolex... happy that i'm no longer a mailbox officer, back to being an agent, meaning lesser tasks and responsibilities... excited for the training, to meet new friends... but nervous at the same time of the certification and phone lab... pressured to finish all the due mailbox tasks and to pass the cert...

life is indeed like a box of chocolates.. you'll never know what you're gonna get.. we'll never know what's gonna hapen... we just need to grab every opportunity that comes along... so i'll be taking this as an opportunity... hopefully a good one... for career growth and movement... so help me God... :)

MnM, i guess i'll be seeing you next week.. :)


~grazhishu~
*new wu chun fan*
*forever loyal joe cheng gal*